First off, I'm 24, married, a RM, and about to graduate in April. Guess what? I feel old. I remember when my siblings (more specifically my brother Jon) were 24 and close to graduating, they were old (to me). Now, all of those things are supposed to make me feel old; however, I feel old for none of those reasons. Two things make me feel old.
The first: I actually voluntarily listen to talk radio and the news. That is something that old people listen to and enjoy. Now my news has more of a variety then just ESPN. The second: I think and worry about the future. For the most part, I have been a notorious procrastinator but I'm starting to change my ways. I actually thought about Christmas gifts before Dec. 15th this year! (that's a first).
The second is a big adjustment for me. When I was single, one of my favorite moments was driving home to Michigan after a summer of living with the Donkersgoeds. I had all four windows down, no shirt or shoes, and all of my possessions in the car with me. I didn't completely secure a job yet and was needing to work 2 days later. I didn't have my class schedule lined up, and I was starting classes the following week. I did not even have any coins on me for the Chicago toll road (I asked the cars behind me with my no shirt or shoes...). No cash. No problems. No worries. I pulled over somewhere in Iowa and slept the best I could in the front seat of the car.
That moment, everything was so undecided for me, and that was ok. I could go wherever or do whatever I pleased, and that summer, I did. I almost didn't come back to Michigan at that time but I decided to come 12 hours before I left.
So now, I'm graduating in April, and I am already concerned about everything in front of me. That makes me feel old... and worried. I am like this because I now realize that my decisions affect others as well as myself. Oh crap, I'm becoming responsible. Now, I crave stability so that I can best take care of my family.
So, what is my life going to be like a year from now? I have no clue and that doesn't excite me like it once did. Now, let me be optimistic. I do have stability in my life. First off, Becca and I have an incredibly good relationship. We love being together and we'll be fine. Second, we have the gospel. In Venezuela, the stability of the gospel attracted people to the church. We have the same opportunities here.
So a year from now, I will still have the stability of the gospel, and Becca and I will have a still have a great relationship. For now, that's enough for me.
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I realize that all successful blogs have pictures posted so here ya go!)This was me being a dork driving home that summer. So dorky yet carefree....
Becca and I having a great time together in Yellowstone this summer.
